AT MIDNIGHT.

As the clock ticked, she could hear every second that brought her closer to her most dreaded moment. She closed her eyes to shut out the thoughts but they were already drawing near. What would she do this time. ‘I don’t want this’ ‘I don’t want this’ ‘I don’t want this’ she screamed. If only the walls could hear her, instead they only swallowed her cries and left her void. The only thing filling her right now was GUILT.

Hey guys, I would have loved to write a lot more on this, probably write a story. The fact is you know your story, how the addiction began to the denial stage to when you realized it was an addiction to when you felt you couldn’t do anything about it to when you realized you needed to do something about it to when you had had just enough to the point....

I don’t really plan to write much on this but I’ll like to implore you to meet the master. I’m not saying you’re not a ‘christian’ or you’re a bad person or anything like that. I’m saying be true to whatever’s happening with you right now and lay it at the feet of Jesus. He listens. He cares. He won’t judge you. He’ll help you through it.

I pray for you that the Almighty God be with you through whatever you might be facing. I pray that you conform to his image so that when he comes that day you’ll be his bride…..pure and acceptable.

P.S – if there’s someone you trust, you could share whatever you're facing so as to keep you in check.

God bless you.

THE PAIN OF LOSING SOMEONE

Waking up this morning, grateful for the gift of life I start thinking what really is life.
It is as vapor I would say, one minute it's here and the next minute it's gone. Writing this short poem even as I sympathize with a friend, yes a friend, one of the blog's regular readers. I pray you'll be comforted through this pain, for no amount of words can make up for what you lost.

She was so beautiful,
Her chocolate-like skin glowed as the rays of the sun danced around her,
Her smile...it was so perfect, you had to stand still

The joy she brought whenever she was around,
That light laughter and the little beautiful creases that lined by her eyes,
She had an aura, she definitely did
To him none was like her

But then everything started,
The pain she felt within her,
Her skin seemed like it started to lose its glow,
The life in her laughs seemed to be fading,
This certainly can't be happening,
How can a soul so beautiful and pure yet experience such pain,
How could life be so cruel,you would say,
But she didn't waver in her belief in God,
She stood firm on the solid rock, her very firm foundation

Even as she passed through the painful process,
The weakening thoughts,
The check-ups, the drugs,
The tears, if only they would heal her flesh,

But even as she passed through the valleys of the shadows of death,
She knew she would be with her king soon, her lover,
Surely he would take care of her own,

Death! you may have totured her body,
But you never got to her soul,
For she stayed strong gazing at her Saviour,
even till the end.
Ps 73:26

Rest in Him.
Till you meet with the ones you love again.

GOD I LOOK TO YOU

The thought of it all,
of life and its experiences,
is truly overwhelming,

To think of what the next day holds,
talkless of what the next year brings,
is truly overwhelming,

To think of all your dreams and goals,
of whether or when they'll come to pass,
is truly overwhelming,

To think of the relationships that'll last,
or the ones that'll fade away,
is truly overwhelming,

To think of whether you're going in the right direction,
st the perfect pace,
is truly overwhelming,

To think of lost opportunities and wonder when or if
 another will come your way,
is truly overwhemling,

To think of whether you're making the right investments,
or not,
is truly overwhelming,

but to the Lord alone,
I look up to,
to Him I submit all of my thoughts,
to Him I surrender.

Please listen to this song, after you read this; GOD I LOOK TO YOU - BETHEL LIVE.
Click here for the link --> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CR5IoWH9OiI

I WONDER.....

Waking up this morning, God is Faithful..…most times we just say this but we don’t realize the depth. See Dn 9:14 “… for the Lord our God is righteous in all he has done, but we have not obeyed him”. Sometimes I wonder if I’m even worthy enough to call his name, to sing his praise! I wonder how he feels deep within when he tried to call out to me but I turned my face away from him only to go back to him later (mind you “at my convienience”) , I wonder how he feels when he decides to just drop by to say hello and he finds us doing things not worthy of him ;not worthy of his image or glory, I wonder how he feels when he sees the heart of men beating with no purpose or regards for him but in pursuit of other things, letting envy and strife consume their entire spirit! I wonder how he feels when he hears people talking about him in their bid to defend “truth” with so much hate, self-pride, arrogance and filth, I wonder how he feels when people the world refers to as “his people” nail him to the cross over and over again by what they do in the dark corners, in their thoughts, all in their self-righteous mind. I wonder how long he’ll wait for his bride to come back to him, to belong to him and him alone. I wonder………

HOW CAN A WRONG BE CALLED RIGHT? :(

How can a wrong be called right?
Our leaders keep embarassing our country for afterall their after their own selfish aim,
A liar gets away just because his lawyer was good enough to defend him,
The cry of an abused wife is left unheard because she married an abuser who was once "a lover",
The cry of an abandoned child left to echo in the empty streets because he/she is NOT WANTED,
The lives of innocent citizens squandered at the mercy of "please just take the money,this is it",
The tears of hungry children unheard every night with no place to lay thier heads,
The screams of people at their point of death because of a druken driver,
The shouts from the prayers of Nigerians for the rot has gone too deep,

One thing I know is; PSALM 53:4-5, God speaking,
Have the workers of iniquity no knowledge,
Who eat up my people as they eat bread,
And do not call upon God?

THERE THEY ARE IN GREAT FEAR,
WHERE NO FEAR WAS,
FOR GOD HAS SCATTERED THE BONES OF HIM WHO ENCAMPS AGAINST YOU;
YOU HAVE PUT THEM TO SHAME,
BECAUSE GOD HAS DESPISED THEM.

So people, please do not wonder where God is in with everything happening around us and even with us, This is God's word for you. KEEP CALM AND KNOW THAT HE IS GOD.

God Bless
@_iBkSuper  :)

HE CARES TOO MUCH ABOUT YOU!

Its been 3 months since Angela ate any balanced diet, the last time she ate any good food was April and that was because it was Chioma's birthday, infact right now she didn't have any friends for she could not keep up with their profligate lifestyle and they all left her ,never bothered to even ask why she stopped going out with them..."THIS LIFE SHAR"....she thought aloud. Today, she couldn't stand up to beg the land-lord to fix her electricity for she hadn't paid the rent for last month plus this month too. "GOD WHICH KIAN LIFE BE THIS ONE?"...."you know you can just get the knife and put an end to all this in one second.....it won't even hurt you" that voice whispered in her head....At this point Angela had run out of all options,she lost her job 3 months ago and still hadn't found a promising one, her only parent alive was lying the hospital....almost dead....and Chioma wept bitterly, helpless.

"Can a woman forget her nursing child,
And not have compassion on the son of her womb?
SURELY THEY MAY FORGET,
Yet I will not forget you.
See, I have inscribed you on the palms of my hands;
Your walls are continually before Me".

What a situation Angela was in, no one to help her, no one cared for her! the thought of suicide became the only way of escape but ISIAH 49:15-16 tells us,God himself speaking...I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU!...MY CHILD, LOOK AT YOU IN MY PALMS...ETCHED! ENGRAVED! INSCRIBED!....HOW COULD YOU EVER THINK I LEFT YOUR SIDE FOR ONE MOMENT!...YOU JUST STOPPED BEING AWARE OF MY PRESENCE....BUT I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE AND I'M STILL HERE WAITING..........

God Bless.
@_iBkSuper

A WRITE-UP ;)

Restless....
Torn between two worlds,
Flesh fighting against spirit,
"His grace is sufficent" they say,
So "where is this grace?" I shout aloud in my heart,
Can he even hear me,
for I am desperately in need of it now,
For I can't go on anymore,
I just can't,
For I will do do one thing and end up doing another,
"His strength is made perfect in weakness" they also say,
If there was anytime I was weak,
It is now,
Where is his Strength?
Tell me!...."where is his strength?"
For I am breaking down,
My heart is weakened,
My Spirit is limping,
So I am restless...till I find my rest in you,
Keeper of my heart,
Let your peacerule my heart,
.......Now and forever more.....

Most times in life's journey we forget that there's only one source of strength and that's from God the one who gives us his grace liberally as a gift.
Most times all we need is just to receive this free gift.
"COME AS YOU ARE, MY BELOVED!"......He says

GOD BLESS
@_iBkSuper :)